the tenacious ten: beginning again… again
I’ve typed the first sentence to this post four times now. I can’t seem to settle on what I want to say. I’m back in the swing of actively trying to lose this darn weight. Or at least I was going to be. Then I remembered the gymnastics banquet tomorrow night with the amazing lasagna, and I figured I’d better at least wait until after that, because, well, it would be a shame to waste any of my meal, after all. Which meant my weight work-out went by the wayside tonight, rather than squeezing it in. Which meant I helped to finish the gluten-free brownies so they...
Read Morecatching up
Whew. Two weeks since I’ve last been here. So much for posting at least twice a week… Flexibility. That was my word for the day last time I posted. Turns out, it was prophetic, as the last two weeks got entirely swallowed up in the preparations for, execution of, and recovery from my daughter’s class trip (otherwise known as Four Days on The Junk Food Express). It remains a good word, as I try to bend over backwards writing for the blogs (building a platform), finishing the manuscript, and writing the formal proposal while juggling work, family time, kid’s...
Read Morethe tenacious ten: wanting what i want
Saturday evening’s tryst with Graeter’s went just fine, thanks to the brilliant idea that we pick up a few pints and eat them at the house, which somehow, fortunately, took the emotional impact out of it for me. (And it is, after all, all about me. Sheesh…) One bite of coconut chocolate chip was enough to sate me, and I was content to sip my tea and chew my dessert-flavored gum in favor of fitting into my shorts when I go to Alabama in two weeks. While that crisis was thankfully averted, I continue struggling, ad nauseum, to find the line between what my body wants and what my...
Read Morethe tenacious ten: day 23
I am now 23 days into what was supposed to be my hard, fast run toward the finish line. I should be almost there. Um, yeah. Well… Here’s the thing. I SUCK at this. This “go at it hard” and “incredible efforts to get incredible results” thing. What I’m really good at is maintaining. I do that well, for the most part, barring any carbohydrate-craving-inducing injuries right before Christmas that send me into tailspins. Outside of THAT, I maintain my weight fairly easily. It took me some time (all the while telling myself I was trying to...
Read Morethe tenacious ten: day sixteen
Between being hit (and laid out flat) by the big, red bus that comes once a month and having a little too much birthday revelry, last night was spent in bed on the heating pad rather than in front of my computer. I’m telling myself this was okay, especially given that I have FOUR cancellations today and now have some time to spend catching up. But it doesn’t FEEL okay. The pants feel tighter. The body feels heavier. The mind feels murkier. The mood feels angstier. I’m telling myself that the combination of not having exercised with an extra large salad and a...
Read Morethe tenacious ten: day fifteen
Hunger rose up within me tonight from somewhere way deep within–that gnawing, growling, persistent hunger that a low-fat cheese stick and an apple just wasn’t going to touch. Though it happens every month, it still catches me off guard every time. I know where the hunger comes from–and I know it will be gone by the end of the week. But it frightens me, nonetheless. I do not like this feeling. I do not like feeling I could eat everything available to me and still be hungry again five minutes later. I do not like feeling I cannot stave off this craving within me,...
Read Morethe tenacious ten: day fourteen
Heading in to week three, it is time to reboot. A week in intense creative flurry bumped my trajectory a bit off course, as did my daughter’s birthday party this weekend. But the jeans that didn’t fit a month ago still fit, so I am not panicking. Yet. Today was back to basics again, as well as I could being exhausted and not feeling well. I’m trying my best to follow my “striped” version of eating clean without being legalistic and thereby depressing the snot out of myself. We shall see if it is enough. If not, then we move to depressing… I have two weeks before there...
Read Morefor the record…
…looking at Sugardaddy’s brownies is not helping the carbohydrate cravings. I’m just sayin’…
Read Morethe tenacious ten: day seven
Spent the weekend with a houseful of people and pets, thanks to our alma mater’s collegiate choir being in town on their spring break tour. Entertaining company is always a challenge for me when I’m trying to lose weight. Or maintain. Or any time that involves eating, which is all of my life, as I tend to eat on a daily basis. I have the best of intentions, but once there is Mama Mimi’s pizza fresh out of the oven or breakfast casserole likewise fresh, well, the intentions that were so black and white suddenly fade to gray. One more piece of pizza won’t hurt,...
Read Morethe tenacious ten: day four
I wish someone would have reminded me that too much protein powder does not make one’s stomach happy. No reason. Day four was uneventful. The Kashi Go-Lean Crunch has stopped calling me, as it is no longer in the cupboard. It can’t call from within my stomach–I figured that was the safest bet for all involved. So I am free from that temptation. It was a tough sacrifice to have to eat it all before it drove me crazy. But sometimes you just gotta do whatcha gotta do. The Zone bars, on the other hand, are very quick and easy and have CHOCOLATE on them. They...
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